As I am

This another poem I wrote...

As I am

He came to me with scars on his wrist
Saying he can't go through this
I said "I can help you."
He said "There is nothing to do."
Trying to lift this pressure of your shoulders
He said "It's over."

Even though it feels like
We're slipping through life
He will help us get by
He will never leave your side
His footprints are left beside yours

Just tell me the person I was going to be, again
Just take me as I am

She came to me with a tear stained-face
Saying she lost her faith
He is calling your name
She says
"I know
He won't let me go
I'll give Him control
I'll let go of my dreams
I'll wait until He shows me
Who He wants me to be."

Can't you see this love that God gives
Even though it feels like you are slipping through His finger tips
He will always catch you
Now I can see without You, I can't make it through

Remind me the person I was going to be, again
Just take me as I am

Heartbeat

This is another poem I wrote.....

Heartbeat

These days are flying by fast
Just want to make this one life last
I want to give everything a chance
I want to make a stand
I want to make a change

Tell me that You love me
One more time
So I could know that this is not a dream
Don't want to feel this pain tonight
When You look through me
You see
My heartbeat

Giving You all that is within
Going to keep on going
Even when I am broken
These tears are falling
Not going to stop following
My dreams
For You are for me

Tell me that You love me
One more time
So I could know that this is not a dream
Don't want to feel this pain tonight
When You look through me
You see
My heartbeat

Forever

As you know in my recent post, Forgiven, I have doubted God. The day after I found Him again, I wrote this poem.

Forever

I thought I was on the right track
Never thought I would slip from Your grip
Never thought I would fall back

But here I am crying out
Soaking my pillow
I feel the urge to shout
"I need You now!"

Now I know that You love me without regrets
And there is nothing I can do to make You love me less
Trying to get out of this mess
I know that You will love me, forever.

Now I've found my way back to You
I give You all my worries, dreams, and fears
I, now, live my life for You
You wipe away my tears

Now I know that You love me without regrets
And there is nothing I can do to make You love me less
Trying to get out of this mess
I know that You will love me, forever.

Show me what I will be
When I grow up
You know my dreams
Never going to give up

Lord, whatever it is
Show me
Never going to get enough of this
Love You give to me

-Alli

Best Blog Award

Dr. T.L. Sanderfer has tagged me. Dr. Sanderfer gave me the "Best Blog Award".

Here are the rules:

To accept the award, you must post it on your blog along with the name of the person who has honored you with the award, and include a link to his/her blog. Then you must choose 15 other blogs that you believe deserve the honor of Best Blog. You must contact each of the bloggers you choose and let them know you have honored them. Include a link to your post, along with the rules, so they will know what to do.

I chose these people to accept this award:

• Alexander-Firmly Fixed On The Father
• Nancy-Southern Blessings
• Miss Zara-Christian Maidens Throughout The World
• Feelin' Feminine
• Ashley-Cowgirl's Dream
• Sarah-The Destiny of One

That is all I could think of.

Friendship

"A friend loveth at all times...." Proverbs 17:17

"Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their work: If one falls down, his friend can help him up. But pity the man who falls and has no one to help him up! Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm. But how can one keep warm alone? Though one may be overpowered two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken."
Ecclesiastes 4:9-12

Forgiven

It was probably 2-3 months ago that it happened. I started to doubt God, and was wondering if I really was a Believer. I am really attached to my laptop. So at that time I didn't care about anything. Television, reading, music, food, family, life, and my laptop. That is a list of stuff that I enjoy. All I wanted to do was to sit on my bed in the morning and cry until night. I cried to the point my eyes started hurting.

I was so mad at myself that I wanted to punish myself and God so I threw my Bible in the trash. Later that day, my brother went to take the trash out, and the bag was unusually heavy. So Mom went through the trash, and found my Bible but she didn't tell me.

On a Wednesday, Mom decided that I needed to get out of the house. So she and I took the family van to a restaurant. Pulling off our road, Mom turned on a Christian radio station. I started crying because I was hearing about God. While we were eating I asked Mom if I could go to youth group that night so I could talk to my youth pastor. I got to talk to him after the service. He said he had a similar problem. And he prayed for me. That night, while I laid in bed with tears in my eyes, I thought about the journey of the day. I realized that I felt a lot better. I asked God for forgiveness, and told Him He can have complete control of my life. And asked Him to use me to glorify Him.

The next day, I counted my money. I had enough to get a new Bible. So after lunch, I wrote a note to Mom saying that I wanted to get a new Bible. That night I stuck the note on her bedside table.

The next morning she never spoke of the note. So, I was worried that the note might of got knocked off her table. So, I asked about the note. She went to her room, and grabbed my Bible and came to the living room where I was waiting. She said that she was waiting for the right time to give it back to me. She gave it to me. I thanked her and hugged her.

Now thinking back to that main struggle of my life, I know it was test of my faith. I know that my faith in Him is stronger than I could ever imagine.

"...Stop doubting and believe." John 20:27 (NIV)

"Your word, o LORD, is eternal: it stands firm in the heavens. Your faithfulness continues through all generations." Psalm 119:89, 90 (NIV)

Young Maiden's Daybook-1/4/2010

Today...January 4th, 2010

Outside my window...Very cold, and sunny.

I am thinking...Of what dinner I want to make this week.

I am wearing...A brown long-sleeved shirt, and blue jeans

I am reading...My Bible, and my Nancy Drew series

I am creating...Nothing at the moment. But I will make chocolate chip cookies this Tuesday.

One of my favorite things...Learning to play my piano

For education this week...My regular school schedule, and I plan to continue to learn how to play my piano.

A keeper at home-skill I am using/learning...How to make different items out of the food we grow out of our backyard.

A spiritual lesson I am learning...Patience, controlling my actions and words, and praying without ceasing.

A godly character trait I plan to work on...Being content in each situation that God places me in.

Scripture I am memorizing..."She makes coverings for her bed; she is clothed in fine linen and purple. Her husband is respected at the city gate, where he takes his seat among the elders of the land. She makes linen garments and sells them, and supplies the merchants with sashes. She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come. She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue." Proverbs 31:22-26

I am praying for...Guidance through my life and choosing the right path to walk on, that He will make my dream come true, and unspoken prayer requests.

For the rest of the week...My parents have Bible study Tuesday evening, My brothers and I have our Bible study on Wednesday evening, and whatever the Lord seems to fit in.

A picture I would like to share...This is picture of a lily pad flower I took some time last year.



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